BOOK ONE / PREVIEW 01
Opening Scene: Nina's Childhood
"Sometimes survival is quieter than victory. It is just the sound of a small girl running faster than the lie they told about her."
Nina was eleven when the world first shifted under her feet.
Her father, a quiet man with rough, careful hands, ran a small shop in Soho, where he repaired the delicate instruments of the Philharmonic Orchestra.
Violins, cellos, grand pianos. He brought broken music back to life for a living.
He never raised his voice. He never raised his hand. He simply loved her in the way some men build houses: steady, silent and meant to last forever.
When he died, the music in Nina's world stopped too.
Her mother, Nora, did not know how to fill the silence. Instead, she filled it with Lester.
Lester smiled with yellow teeth and bought Nina a doll the day her father was buried.
Two weeks later, Nina told her mother the truth: Lester was touching her.
Nora did not believe her. Nora said Nina was confused, dramatic, difficult.
The next morning, Nora packed a small case and dropped Nina at the convent door.
No goodbye, no tears. Just the heavy sound of the car pulling away.
Inside the convent, the nuns gave her a different name. She was not Nina anymore. She was Number 37.
A number stitched into her clothes, whispered in the cold corridors where prayers mixed with bleach.
The walls smelled like vinegar and old rain. At night, she lay awake staring at the cracked ceiling, planning her escape.
At fourteen, she ran.
She ran straight to Ivy, her mother's sister, who lived around the corner from the local pub in a neat three-bedroom house with a garden just wild enough to whisper that nobody really had time to look after it properly.
The house looked ordinary enough from the outside: a bay window, a small brick wall out front, lace curtains that twitched if you lingered too long on the doorstep. But there was a current running through the place, a tension in the air.
Money had come from somewhere. Everyone knew it, but nobody said it.
Ivy was tall, wiry and moved like someone who always had three things on her mind and not enough time to get through them all.
Her hair was dyed a harsh red that caught the light like a warning sign, and a cigarette lived between her fingers as naturally as a knife in a gangster's boot. She smoked one fag after another, barking orders through the haze, her voice rough from years of cheap tobacco and sharper words.
Ivy did not ask questions. She handed Nina a mop and a mattress on the floor and pointed to the broom cupboard when Nina asked about a wardrobe.
Stan, Ivy's husband, was a plasterer who spent most nights down the pub, drinking himself into the kind of silence that did not invite conversation. When he came home, he smelled of beer and wet cement, his boots dragging grit across the carpet.
Their two sons were born mean: rough, angry boys with fists quicker than their mouths, always circling the edge of real trouble. Nina learned fast to keep her back to the wall when they were home.
There was a daughter too, but she barely made a ripple in the house, floating through the background like steam off a kettle nobody bothered to refill.
Ivy always had something on the go: crates of cigarettes hidden behind the beans, stolen jackets, dodgy perfume deals.
In an ordinary house, beans lived behind the beans. At Ivy's, cigarettes did. Nina understood she had arrived somewhere with a more imaginative approach to storage.
She learned early that the labels on cupboards, people and respectable families were mostly decorative.
You did not survive by telling the truth. You survived by moving fast and never asking for more than you could carry.